Be well

Over the past few weeks I’ve been looking at how I attract things into my life, when I attract them and what are the seeming processes prior to getting to these peak states that I’ve been achieving. I remember the night I decided I needed to relook at myself, the night I stripped all my clothes off and had a real good look at who I was, what I didn’t like about myself, what I did like about myself and then I looked into my eyes and started picking and noting the things that I wanted to change.

I cried that night when I looked at how much of me I wanted to change. I remember putting on my underwear, making a cup of coffee, sitting at my dining room table with pen and paper in hand and I began to write from the top what it was I wanted to change.

1. My body
2. My diet

There is a lot on that list of mine and I have been working through it as I go along. Four months ago I decided to look at my elephant and see how I could eat it one chunk at a time. These were the two that I started with, that I thought were manageable for me to deal with and then the rest I would take one bight at a time.

I sat with my friend tonight and we were chatting about how my body is changing and how I feel like my biorhythms are getting to be in a better place. I know the endorphins that are released through my gym work – outs, ballet classes, mountain climbing, walks along the beach and watching the way I have been eating has made a startling difference to the person I saw in the mirror. I know its sounds very superficial taking care of the outside, but its all part of me and who I am. This body is my body and this mind and these emotions are all mine, so I need to start someplace and that’s what Ive done.

Im not talking about the fact that Ive gone from being little Lotta to the Incredible Hulk but rather that I notice and see the difference in myself and after all, we are our biggest critics in everything we do. I know the healthier eating habits have not only contributed towards a healthier body, but also to a healthier mind and all these little things combined make for a better stronger person; spiritually , mentally and emotionally.

I feel proud that my friend has noticed the changes in me and my body, but I feel prouder still that I started with my list and that I am seeing some results bear fruit!

Ill be leaving for Barcelona on Friday and will be out of Cape Town for two weeks spending time with my loved ones, my dogs and my family! It’s a very exciting prospect and I may not have time to blog every day but I will try to blog at least a few times.

Now I am adding some summer to the healthier body and healthier mind ( with a lot of sunscreen) but I think that I may even get a boost with a good dose of Vitamin D. What I do know is that I feel like the attraction of good things is aligning itself to me and my life right now and a great way to leave for a vacation. I actually think I deserve it!

States of flow

I thought I had a crappy day yesterday. I was ready to just let the day be over, get into bed and sleep it away so as to awake this morning feeling refreshed and revitalized for a new day! So much changes so quickly in my life, I realized!

Having shut down my laptops, my cell-phone rang and I received an unexpected call from a friend in Italy! Being such an unexpected surprise call, my first reaction was “what’s wrong?” Thankfully there was nothing wrong, but in the process of a half hour telephone call I went through various emotions that moved me into such a good place emotionally. While I was on this long distance call I noted my phone beeping to see another call coming through which I returned once I had finished with my friend. It happened to be another friend who had just been given my number, and a person whom I had not spoken to in over a year! Another surprise!

IT got me thinking this morning about my mood swings in a matter of about 45 minutes. I had an embarrassing moment where I even blushed, I laughed, I listened, I spoke, but most importantly I thought of everything else but the Crappy day that I had and I went to bed with a smile on my face and thanked the universe for another day! I realized this morning that we are all faced with various states of thought and emotion. Recently I listened to a tele-seminar about how Thought + Emotion = Attraction! Is this what actually happened to me last night? As my thought patterns changed, my emotions lifted remarkably and I felt the attraction of being in a better state.

How do we call on these ‘peak-states’ to maintain a great sense of flow within ourselves, to make us feel better? Ive understood now that the “thought” part is who we want to be; the “emotion” part is what’s happening at present which is what gives us the “attraction” of what we are faced with at that moment. I think what I did come to understand is that we need to be happy NOW – this very moment.

Being happy now - with goals which are set for our future - allows us these peak states. I think what I need to start noting is what the development is to reach this peak state and note also when I am in the peak state. This peak state is a sense of happiness that allows good thoughts, good feelings and basically just having a smile all over your body, known also as a fabulous mood!

I want to be in this space all the time, don’t we all? I do know that thanks to a very special friend making the effort to call and chat, and a surprise long lost friend’s call I felt fantastic; I still do. A short brief moment has left a long standing sense of happiness within my soul and I can only say THANK YOU.

Perhaps we should all note that sometimes its nice to just call and say hello, no matter where you may be. It puts a smile in someone’s heart that may really need it at that moment in time. Unbeknownst to my friends, that is exactly what happened last night and I sit here today with a huge smile on my face still!

Today I feel my cosmic attraction is at a peak not reached in a long time! I need to accept that the universe will lead me in the right direction at times, and I don’t have to fight it.

My Core Energies

Is it possible to do and be anything? After reading what I wrote yesterday I went back and listened to two chapters of the Secret. The Secret does promote that we can do anything, be anything and achieve anything we want.

It got me wondering if that is at all possible for each individual. Does this not rely a lot on our own personalities and the likes and dislikes that each of us have? What I mean is that IF I like to dance and I have an interest in it and go ahead and do it, is it not more likely that I will succeed in it as apposed to Basket-ball that I have no interest in whatsoever? IS it possible for me to start playing basket-ball, practice it a lot and then succeed in it as well? I think not.

I do believe that each and every one of us has our core beliefs and our core likes/dislikes. I think that these are almost ingrained into us like our DNA, which is what makes each and everyone of us unique. Does it mean that we can challenge ourselves to the point of actually doing something that we don’t like and don’t really want to do? Does this mean that our motivations for these dislikes are changeable as well and can we sell it to ourselves to start doing things we never really liked in the first place? Why would we want to do them anyway?

I am often confronted by aspects of what I like, as apposed to what others expect from me. I do want to be able to help others and feel that I am giving back as well as making sure that I am able to nurture these others, to gain what is good for them in their lives. I know that I always challenge myself to do things that I think will help me in my life but I am also aware that as a caring human I will go out of my way to help others and have often landed up doing things that I don’t really want to do.

If I look at my upbringing and the strength that was indirectly imposed on my by my parents, I start questioning all these things in the life that I live. I seem to often be living according to others expectations of me and somewhere along the line I find that I have denied myself the total happiness that I could have. I do tend to put my desires on the back burner if there is something that I can do for others when they need or ask for my help. IS that right or wrong? I have a good friend who does everything for herself first and then takes care of others thereafter. Am I missing the point and is this selfish or not?

In my search for my positive energies, I realized last night that I need to release these guilty feelings to helping myself first. I need to recognize where I am able to help others to my best ability and then I need to do the right thing for myself, although it does seem to come across as selfish. These are tough decisions to make and to change. These are constant training sessions that I need to give myself and my inner voice critic that is sometime so harsh on me and what I am doing.

Sometimes like today, it just gets all too much for me and I have a real CRAPPY day, to say the least. Im exhausted mentally, emotionally and even physically. I feel like all the work Im putting into this journey should be chucked out the window of a fast moving train and I should just give up and register myself as lost on my own road!
Then I have a good dinner, do a calm meditation and remind myself that all roads are not smooth, and that it’s my core energy that I am using to smooth these roads. Isn’t it only logical then that I will feel tired and drained and just wanting to burst into tears? Still doesn’t help me really, but I suppose I do at least have hope in that Im looking to find the solutions to my challenges as it’s the solutions that matter, not the challenges.
But some days I just can’t face them and actually don’t want to. Am I allowed to feel crappy, get into bed and say thanks for a crappy day, tomorrow is another day?

I just feel too exhausted to think or do anything right now!

The different options available

I think many things have come my way on purpose during this period of growth. Perhaps its because Im more receptive to them and ready to open my mind to new ideas and new views. It’s fantastic!

I have come across a theory posed by an 82 year old man called the American Monk. His theory is that we all have the possibilities of various levels of living available to us all the time. He calls it quantum jumping and at first I found it a little hard to come to terms with but seem to finally understand what he is getting across and I think its a very interesting theory.

If you think of a radio and all the radio waves that are around us all the time, is the example that started making sense to me. The amounts of radio stations available to us at any time are many, but the receptor can only tune into one wave at a time. If we want to change the radio station we need to set the radio dial to another frequency and thereby pick up the new station.

The American Monk says our lives are the same. We have countless possibilities of how we can live our life. Depending on what frequency we are on is the way we live our life at that particular time. We do have the capability of changing the levels we are on by shifting our focus accordingly, like changing the radio stations, but it takes time and practice.

I read this with great interest. I thought about the Secret that seemed to be on everyone’s lips, mine included, a few years ago. Are we able to attract all the goodness into our lives? I do think we are able, but as with anything in our lives, we need to want to do this and be aware of the effort we put into it for it to take place in our lives. I have also read many writings on how the Secret is filled with holes and one cannot live your life just by wishing for it.

I know that I have had to change my way of thinking to get me where I am today. I have had to make a conscious effort to changing my inner voice of how I speak to myself and how I criticize myself as I go alone. I also notice that the more I do it and become aware of it, the easier it gets, as anything in my life that I make a concerted effort to practice.

Perhaps the possibilities that I have around me are endless and its up to me to change the radio frequency to be able to see them. I know that I am coming across a lot of people in the same position as I have been and I have been able to offer my thoughts from my perspective from my personal experience. Ive been giving thanks daily and now Ive been able to give back, in a way.

Does that mean that Ive started seeing different frequencies available to me in my life, Im not sure, but I do know that its an interesting theory and one Im reading up on more and more, because I think that there are so many theories available to all of us but we are only seeing them when we are ready to understand them. The universe does present us with options, I see that now.

The seeds of life being planted

We find all sorts of seeds being planted in our lives on a day to day basis. This is a process I refer to often. Think of yourself as the farmer who works the seed process.

The farmer

The farmer stands facing his land, the sun is rising in the east and the cocks are crowing all around him. Its spring and work needs to be done.
A farmer needs to first work the soil to get it to a good quality soil. This is done through toiling the soil, watering the soil and fertilizing the soil. The farmer needs to work his soil to aerate it. The farmer will do this process for a while before he is happy that it is ready. Sometimes its more difficult because a drought has dried the soil, or a black frost has covered the land. The ground may be hard and very dry and the farmer needs to toil and toil and toil – aerating all the time to get the ground loose and viable. The farmer works meticulously to make sure his soil is aerated. He does all the right things to ensure a healthy happy soil.

Once the farmer is happy with his soil preparation, he sets to work. He plans how he will grow his crop and in which patches he will grow what crop. He may even measure the distances between the seeds that he needs to plant, giving him an idea of how much he can grow over his land. He then starts his planting. Meticulously working and planting until his seeds are all planted.

He may need to fertilize some seeds more, but in general he will need to ensure that they are watered. The watering will help the seeds germinate and with a little luck he may even have a helping hand from nature, with a daily rain pour which will water his seeded ground as nature intended. Pretty soon the plants break ground as the seedlings curl their heads upwards, start stretching their stork spines and start the growing process of reaching for the sky.

Pretty soon the stalks are stretched tall and healthy and near fruit. The farmer looks at the land and smiles when the fruit is ready, as his hard work has paid off. He now starts to harvest his crop, sell it to the markets and soon, will start the whole process again as a new season enters and new crops get planted.

Occasionally the farmer has a bad season, because of a drought or even a flooding. Sometimes unexpected locusts attack or ants eat the roots. But it will pass and it will start anew again.


The analogy of the farmer is one I use often. It fits into many situations of everyday life. You can be the farmer working at your job, to bear the fruits thereof. I used to use it to train my staff teaching them how they need to work their prospects and nurture them through properly so that they can eventually bear the fruits that will carry them a long way.

Today I use it in the sense of how I look at the land as my life. I’ve been working the land, feeding it and watering it to get it to a point of seeding it for the future. Often I think the seeds are already planted and laying dormant for a good watering, and the processes I have been going through in my life sure makes me feel like I am at that stage of the farming process already. With hard work comes a lot of luck and I am starting to feel like my own self discovery is bearing fruit and a lot of seeds planted will bear more fruit as I continue.

Life is not always perfect, but it sure is exhilarating to feel like a farmer again with a new season ahead to nourish and strive towards a successful harvest.

Im harvesting my life! Try it, you may just like it!

Optimism found!

For a long time, my whole life in fact, I have always been an optimist. Its always a great day regardless of the weather and life is very good. That’s how Ive lived my life. I try not sweat the small stuff and I find the sunny side in every trying situation.

In this journey of mine I have come to realize that somewhere along the line over the past few years I became a pessimist. Horribly negative, although I would never admit it, and only seeing doom and gloom. I lost a lot of material things and that seemed to make me even more of a pessimist and only see more doom and gloom. At some point I even considered just ending it all!

I don’t know where the change happened or how it even happened. But it happened! It is through this period of regrouping myself that I have come to realize no matter what I thought, my inner voice was challenging me to the negative, and powerfully so. I would not see the glass as half full but half empty and I did not realize that even if it was half empty it was a lot more than many around me even had!

I would burst into tears for no apparent reason and embarrassingly so at the strangest of times and in the strangest of places. I constantly felt like I had the world on my shoulders and with that I constantly had my shoulders up around my ears. I would suffer from migraines and I would have a terrible feeling of gloom as the knot in my stomach would churn and churn. It was not fun and it is not something I would wish on anyone but it was very real to me.

Somewhere along this search of mine I seem to have just discovered again the optimistic Maurice that Ive always been. I realized this morning that these feelings of euphoria that Im feeling in the morning are lasting longer and longer and Im walking around with a smile on my face again, as well as in my heart. Happiness is not a co-incidence, it’s a choice. I choose to be happy, regardless of the challenges I am faced with. I feel that everyday is a great day again, and if it rains and the wind blows, well hey, enjoy the break from the strong African sun and take time to do more things indoors that I don’t get around to doing when the sun is always shinning.

You see, I think my DNA is optimistic. I think that even though I may have been a pessimist for a while, my inner voice through all this searching, has told my subconscious mind that I need to get over it already, and get back on track! I find that I am working better, and I am eating healthier. I don’t feel like I have the world on my shoulders and I notice that I can see my earlobes again as my shoulders are not hiding them. I now even think I have cute earlobes, what the hell!

I am manifesting everyday to myself; I feel Good, I feel Great, I feel Terrific!
I am taking time out to listen to my heart and meditate in silence that my heart is a good heart and that there is space for so much more. My manifestations are working and I believe in myself again. I have so much to offer the world and I have love in my life. I couldn’t see that for a while because of how dark I saw the world in the situation that I found myself. I spent a lot of solo time and I still do. One needs to do this to get to terms with ones self.

How can I give love if I don’t have any for myself? I see that now, and it feels good. Perhaps the pessimism was a necessity in my life for me to regroup myself, my heart and my mind. Perhaps this was the biggest learning curb of my life and SO WHAT if I loose everything and find myself scrapping by? Its only material stuff that I can carry in my hands, but I am a survivor and I am a wonderful person! The sun WILL come out again, and the difference now is that I believe it again!

I believe in myself and I believe in my journey!

I have found the optimism that my DNA has been blessed to have entwined within it!

I feel like I am on the right road of Be Do Get!

I am attracting many good things again and my magnets are starting to recharge and work towards the full strength of attracting all the goodness that I have everyday in my life. It’s been there all the time, Ive just been too pessimistic to see it!

Seeking Your Passion

Nelson Mandela said to Marianne Williamson: “There is no passion to be found playing small – in settling for a life that is less than the one you are capable of living.’
What a slap in the face to a reality check when I read those lines. Honest, real and to the point!

Am I living my life accordingly or am I missing the mark by not looking at the reality of what my life could be? I know that I have been on this journey and I am in search of getting to that mark when I know I will be excited again. I know that I have reached my Point A and I am now looking for my point B. I know that I have become a lot happier through sitting still and writing this blog as I have so much inside that just sits there otherwise, and I have taken the brave route of putting it out there and getting fantastic feedback from many people. It’s been a curious time that reminds me of a roller-coaster ride, and dare I say I love this rollercoaster ride, but would like to get to settled ground again and know that I have grown in the process of the ride!

What are you passions and are you living in the order of the passions you have? This was a question that I overheard at a table in a restaurant, which obviously piqued my interest tremendously, so much so that I just had to eavesdrop a little further. Between the hustling and bustling noise of the restaurant I understood that you should be looking for 5 passions in your life and then live your life according to those 5 passions.

One of the examples I did get to over hear was about putting someone as more important than yourself to enable you to show true love. The subject was about having a child, for you to realize that you are not as important when you have something like a child to take care of! I didn’t think it was a very good example as I know many excellent parents that still follow their passions without having less or more love for their children. In all fairness I did only hear parts of the whole conversation so can’t be too sure if this was an actual example being used to help the lady being spoken to get to her passions.

It did however get me thinking; what are my 5 passions? Do I need to have 5 passions and is it important to have something that is more important in my life than me?
What I do know is that I need to be living my life according to the passions I have. Perhaps I need to classify the importance of my passions to have a look at their importance’s in my life and if I am living accordingly to the order-importance of the passions. Perhaps I am trying too hard in certain areas and not getting the returns I need to be happy in that area? If I challenge myself with these orders perhaps I can change the way my life is lived.

Interesting things you read and then also over-hear in restaurants and coffee shops.

I do think that if I lived my life according to the importance of my passions I will probably find that I would actually change the way I live and probably be so much happier. Perhaps that is the way to find my Point B and get me there quickly.

Am I playing too small and not getting the best results that I should be getting, by not playing bigger? What am I capable of? Strangely Ive never posed that question to myself as I do think the human as a whole is capable of anything. I am capable of anything as are we all, but it’s the intention of each of us that is different and the end results being so different. I do understand the intention of Mr. Mandela’s statement and get excited thinking about the countless possibilities still to be achieved in my life.

I do need to think bigger and I do need to take note of the importances of my passions. It’s no use getting a mediocre result when I should be getting a fantastic result. The results are for me, for my life and for my journey.

Perhaps I need to work harder at seeking my passions.