I am an energetic person. I am 45 with the energy of a bouncing hyperactive 25 year old, and I seem to get more energy the older I get. My brother is an energetic person, and at 49 years old he has the energy of a 29 year old. Why is this? What allows us to have this energy which seems constantly accessible, to a point, and how do we generate this amount of voltage in our system that at times seems to be enough voltage to run Las Vegas for a month?
Yet the way we both use our energy is so, so different. Or is it?
The energy that seems to flow through each of us on a day to day basis depends on how we awake each morning and how we channel it through our moods. Some days we awake feeling pooped and the way we move through the day is sluggish, and slow. On other days we awake hearing the birds sing and we just have a spring in our step, and the whole day has us bouncing around as if walking with spring shoes on, head held high and seeing life through rose coloured glasses. How then is it that the energy I have seems to hit me when I am in bed? I hate laying in bed as I feel like my body is going to sleep and I don’t like the feeling of pins and needles in my butt and legs as I lay on the sheets, and I tend to get very hot.
My way of being is generally that of being motivated to get up and discover a new day. Each day has its surprises and disappointments. Some we take more personally and others we just brush off as unimportant – and this is all dependent on the frame of mind we are in. Other days the things that irritate us are bearable and we just laugh and get on with it, not being bothered by them at all.
I think this energy flow is something unique to each and every one of us. We go out looking, expecting and searching for things to happen and they don’t. Could this be that our energy level is misaligned to our actual thought processes or are we just not getting what we want because the universe does not have them planned for us OR, we actually don’t really want them in the first place, but just don’t own up to it. On other days we go out with a controlled energy as to not expecting, not searching, not wanting things to happen, and then EVERYTHING happens!
Im very conscious of my energy, I have to be as often I need to tone it down because I am so excited by life. This makes me talk loudly, and then I get told shhhhhhh, or I get passionate about a discussion and it comes across as an argument, because of how forceful I feel and discuss the topic. It’s obviously embarrassing to those that surround me as its been brought to my attention, and often times totally misunderstood. But that’s how I’ve felt all my life, misunderstood. My energy levels seem to be understood by others with the same energy levels and I suppose that’s where the law of attraction falls into place, and what sometimes makes opposites attract.
I’m trying so hard to learn how to control my energy and channel it to do what I want it to do, and as you can imagine, not too easy at times. Yesterday was an exceptionally busy day for me. I had a lot of paper work, 5 clients to see in different parts of Cape Town dealing with traffic and then talking calmly about the client’s financial needs. By the time I got home I had more paper work to do, and it was only 3 pm. By 4 o’clock I was in the gym and did a 45 minute weight session, came home again, changed and then went to a ballet lesson for an hour. When I got home I cooked dinner for a girlfriend and we sat chatting afterwards till about 10. Then I seemed to get creative thoughts and got a lot of little personal projects going, writing my blog and rechecking paperwork for the clients I saw today. I got to bed by 2.30 this morning and awoke again at 6.30.
And still I don’t feel like I have channelled my energies to how I want them to be used, and I suppose that would be in finding a balance - a balance of how to use this abundance that I have and want to share with the world. A balance of channelling the energy I have that seems to boil inside of me looking for the vent to escape. What makes my body so different with the abundance that I have inside of physical energy, mental energy and emotional energy?
The life coach I had in Spain got me on track to help me sort my life out, for myself, and also challenge myself to what I can and will do with the rest of my life. It’s made me realise that I am very much aware of what I can do but I am in the process of trying to discover, or perhaps challenge myself further, into how to channel these energies into getting done what I want to do. But there is so much I want to do – and now I realise that I must use this energy to focus on one thing at a time. It’s not easy for me as I tend to be busy with 4 different things at the same time but I am learning to sit still and write the blog on a daily basis. That is such a huge step for me as I am now channelling energy through the blog to people I know and don’t know.
Can I take this further and delve into the portfolio career that my coach thought I should look into? I’m trying my hardest to discover myself, discover my interests and discover my true path in life. Isn’t it amazing that I have so much energy supply to help me in this search?
When last have you looked at your energies and how you utilize them? It’s really an uplifting experience to become aware of what flows through you. Try it.
I give thanks for it every morning and every night when I go to bed.
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